Wednesday, 24 April 2013

I'm Committed To...

I've just got an avalance of work going on right now. But I wanted to post this because I'm too excited about it. I will be using two extremely logical quotes from my best friend, Rose. She is amazing and I love her to pieces. Extraordinarily I didn't like her when we first met. I believed she was taking one of my closest friends away from me. But now we are really close, and I don't wish for it to be any other way. We are actually closer than that close friend I felt she was taking away from me! Funny how that happens! Sometimes life is a real trivia, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I have an incredible friend who will stick by me throughout the twists and turns of life, so I could never be more thankful. Honestly she's such a good friend that she can tell me anything, and though I may be a little shocked, nothing will stop me being friends with her.

What she did in her work which I thought was refreshing was take the series of addictions that she had and wrote them down. Let me explain: these are not drug addictions, just addictions to ideas in life (although she does admit being addicted to alchol which I have to say I am guilty of too!)

The be two addictions that really rang a bell in my head that meant I believe I have these too are:

I am addicted to an irritation for people who are scared of taking risks.


I am addicted to the notion that I may in fact be crazy but also addicted to the notion that I can't be crazy if I think I am. (I made sure I had Rose's permission to put these up here. I will always ask before I use anything of anyone else's.)

I wanted to add to the list of these addictions but I'm going to say I am comitted to them rather than addicted.

1. I am committed to the idea of You Only Live Once.

2. I am committed to living every moment like it's your last. Life's too short not to.

3. I am committed to wondering if other people think of me, even for a second. Especially if it is by someone I regard incredible (a lot of people fit into that boundary!)

& Finally

4. I am committed to the idea that if I give you any of my time in a day you'd better appreciate it.

I'm sure there will be a lot more that I've missed out. If you think of one either that you are 'committed to' or one you think I'd agree with, don't be afraid to leave it in a comment or tweet me (@steph_carfrae).

If I get enough responses I will do another blog like this one and your suggestion may just be in it. Keep your eyes peeled!

Thank you for reading!



Sunday, 21 April 2013


Sorry I haven't posted in a while - it's because i've been in hospital. Nothing  to worry about - am just in the recovery process at the moment which will mean I need an extension on my work but that should be fine.

I have the most fantastic brother in the world - who came to see me when I wasn't feeling right - took me to A&E (after letting me throw up in his car!) and stayed with me until at least 10pm that evening. I'm so grateful to him. He is a true hero though, because in 2009 he ran  the London Marathon in support of Muscular Dystrophy because of me and my brother. He has done so much for me including coming to music events with me.

I'm not 100% back  to normal but I'm getting there.

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Wednesday, 10 April 2013

My Heart Is Protected...(The people I care about...)

Let's start off with 1. YOU (the people who actually bother to read this! I am as ever indebted to you and if there is ever anything I can do for one of you, just ask. I can't promise that I will be able to, but if you never ask you never get. Apart from that, I am not gonna name names of anyone because people who mean a lot to me should already know and if they don't, I will show them in the future. Most of the people I care about, care about me in return so it's all good. I am open with people I trust. But I am not very easy  to crack! I may seem too trusting or w/e at first but I have a very close guard to my heart and I will not give it away unless you deserve it.

The people who care about me are always there when I need them, always pick up their phone should I call them, and it is lovely to have friends like those to rely on. I am lucky because I've come away from home, only to find myself more at home here than I have ever felt. Unfortunately, this will be over soon because the real world is beckoning. It's gonna be really hard to say goodbye to this place...

Big thanks go out to those people who do care about me and who I care about (you know who you are!) for making me who I am today. I have grown so much and have changed but you still have not let me go! Triple thanks for that! Special thanks to my sister, just because, I know I haven't been a very good sister for ages but this year that changes!

As always, leave me a comment with suggestions of topics for future posts. Or tweet me (@steph_carfrae)

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Wednesday, 3 April 2013

I Am Proud

Everyone needs a moment to let out their pride. Do it when you're alone. If you do it when you're with people you may seem boastful or just plain arrogant. And we wouldn't want that!

Just take 5 minutes out of your day, perhaps before bed to think or say out loud:

I am proud of myself.

Think of what you have done during the day that you're thankful for or proud of yourself for.

I am proud of myself for dealing with (said situation) like that.

I am thankful that the sun was shining today!

Hey, I am thankful to be alive!

Because every barrier that stands in your way, you will make it through, it may take a while but you will get there. Always believe in yourself. You never know what's possible until it's achieved. So believe in your dreams. They may not come true, but that's Ok, because they are constantly changing and you will find a way of making it possible if it's meant to happen.

Thank you for reading! As ever, if you do have any suggestions for me to cover in future posts, or if this has stirred a response in you don't be afraid to let me know via twitter (@Steph_Carfrae) or in a comment beneath. Thanks.