Wednesday, 14 November 2018

Kick Into Action

My baby had words with me about not researching what he’s interested in. All the information is there at our fingertips (if you have an internet connection) and so we just need to be able to harness that information. It’s all there. Now, fair point I don’t often go out of my way to research stuff. I guess it’s a bad habit. Which my baby is trying to free me from. So I don’t blame him at all. Sometimes I just need a kick up the arse! 
I’m so interested to find out what he likes and the reason why and it’s time to grow up; be an adult and find out things for myself! I really needed someone to tell me this, so as ever more love bleeds out of me for Ollie than ever! 
Now I have quotes scattered all around my room at home and it’s really time I started taking my own advice. Today is ur someday. 
Today is your day; you can make it positive or negative. Hopefully it’s the former and you can be positive about the changes you are making. 
It strikes me how much time we waste being angry or not pushing ourselves to be the best we can. 
With my disability I do tend to get tired easily and in no way am I making excuses for the behaviour I present but I do need more time to work on stuff. I will get there but in my own time, is all that I can say to defend my position. I have an active mind still, and as long as that keeps burning inside me, that’s all I can hope for.


Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 10 October 2018

Hiya, A Review Of Waterskiing

Whoa, I am so sorry it's been so long I have been really busy. Actually living my life as apposed to stazring at the walls....which I have much experience of. I want to post about the awesome time I had waterskiing but I've been doing so much in between it's hard to know wherfe to begin!

My life is certainly busier, more fabulous and more adventurous since I met my beau, Oliver Matthew Bruce. He just takes my breath away...he's so beautiful. And he has a kind heart. I still can't believe how lucky I am to get to have him in my life. How blessed I am that he lifted me out of the confines of loneliness which I felt trapped in...

Waterskiing was incredible. I was doing a taster session with Sportability which is a fantastic charity. (www.sportability.org.uk) It was thrilling and freeing. I even fell in - but felt so secure that by the time fear fizzled to the surface the instructors were helping me back onto the ski. The way it worked I sat down to waterski. You have to have enough upper body strength to remain sitting up whist a rope pulls you along at speed and I am lucky enough to have that ability. It was awe-inspiring, adrenelin racing. It was such an incredible experience that I can't wait to repeat!

Steph

XxX


Friday, 3 August 2018

All These Thoughts...

Sorry I haven't been doing this as regularly as planned...I can only apologise.

I hate being singled out for being disabled. I used to get it a lot at school and things have improved as I have gotten older but it's still there. I am just an individual with different needs. And different doesn't mean bad. It's just that, different. We all are. I am different and there's nothing I can do about that. And even if I could, I wouldn't. Why would I trade my life for one of perfection? Perfection would be dead boring.

Plus where would all the adventures disguised as challenges come from? Adventures do come disguised as challenges most of the time, and there is no shame in that. If it challenges you then it changes you in some way, albeit small, but it might change the way you look at something which is no bad thing. These are adventures, let your mind see them as such. If you change the vocabulary you use, you can change your mindset about a lot of things.

Steph

XxX

Monday, 18 June 2018

A Thought Or Two...

I have been rubbish at this lately... I'm sorry. My boyfriend takes up most my time nowadays...and  I'm so happy. I never thought I would be. I never thought I deserved to be. I never thought I would be in this position because I add so much more complication to life.

I am loving work at the moment. It was only my first day last week but I am loving every second of it. It's so interesting and relevant in my life. I'm the daredevil person - the one who'll try anything because if you don't try how will you ever know? The company is called Disability Today and it's a great resource for looking up what kind of things are available for disabled people. My boss is Grant Logan who's done loads of videos on youtube about the things he's done after his accident. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pwriL90pUNE 

Stteph

XxX

Tuesday, 5 June 2018

A Poem I Wrote

A long time ago...before I met my boyfriend. But I'm so glad I found it because it's good to reflect upon.....

I don't know where
I don't know when
But I know I'm gonna find you
Someday
It might be today

Stop hiding away
Cos that day might be today
But you'll never know if you don't take chances
Shaky hands and nervous glances
Just live for today
All the heartache just throw away
Cos you don't need to
Suffer from all they put you through
You wanna feel your heart come alive
It will at the right time
You've just not met them yet
Think of all the good times yet to be met.

Tuesday, 22 May 2018

My First Day At Work And 'A Little Information'

It was so good!

I was basically filling out a spreadsheet for work. And it was so interesting.

Just scratching at the surface of what's out there which I had no idea about.

This job will open doors and possible new activities and therefore, new hobbies.

Last Sunday I was at 'A Play In A Day' in The Stoke Public House in Guildford. It took place in the back room.

Inspired by '1984', 'The Hothouse' and 'One For The Road', the play is a really intense but fun ride to take.

All day was spent rehearsing and it was really fun for me to see the makings of a show.

Especially a show that was done in one day!

It was so awesome to have read the full script the day before to actually see it come to life!

'A Little Information' is so cleverly written and seeing it actually performed was incredible.

Oliver Matthew Bruce wrote and directed it.

The fact that he was actually there was a  real incredible feat.

It meant you didn't have to worry about wondering what said playwright meant by a certain line or would he/she want it delivered this way?!

I'm sure the cast felt pressure of him being there, but hopefully not too much.

They are all amateur dramatics pros, I was only an observer.

It was performed by Pranksters and it really was worth seeing.


Tuesday, 15 May 2018

Time

There is no time, only movement. Time has to exist because we made it so. Like if a ball goes up, it must come down. In other words, time is man made! It's just something that the human species made up to explain the changes that occur naturally. As much as the seasons are counted and months are in our ever expanding understanding of our universe.

Things take their own time to ripen and taking your own time to adjust to things is really Ok, even though time won't stop for you to prepare yourself for what's coming nextthis is all the joy of living! And yes, it  can be painful and really hard at times, just remember that there is something good that comes from every day.

My boyfriend and I have discussed this and this is the basics. It's a really interesting concept. My boyfriend has broadened my horizons and given me so many new ideas!

Steph

XxX