Monday, 18 June 2018

A Thought Or Two...

I have been rubbish at this lately... I'm sorry. My boyfriend takes up most my time nowadays...and  I'm so happy. I never thought I would be. I never thought I deserved to be. I never thought I would be in this position because I add so much more complication to life.

I am loving work at the moment. It was only my first day last week but I am loving every second of it. It's so interesting and relevant in my life. I'm the daredevil person - the one who'll try anything because if you don't try how will you ever know? The company is called Disability Today and it's a great resource for looking up what kind of things are available for disabled people. My boss is Grant Logan who's done loads of videos on youtube about the things he's done after his accident. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pwriL90pUNE 

Stteph

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Tuesday, 5 June 2018

A Poem I Wrote

A long time ago...before I met my boyfriend. But I'm so glad I found it because it's good to reflect upon.....

I don't know where
I don't know when
But I know I'm gonna find you
Someday
It might be today

Stop hiding away
Cos that day might be today
But you'll never know if you don't take chances
Shaky hands and nervous glances
Just live for today
All the heartache just throw away
Cos you don't need to
Suffer from all they put you through
You wanna feel your heart come alive
It will at the right time
You've just not met them yet
Think of all the good times yet to be met.

Tuesday, 22 May 2018

My First Day At Work And 'A Little Information'

It was so good!

I was basically filling out a spreadsheet for work. And it was so interesting.

Just scratching at the surface of what's out there which I had no idea about.

This job will open doors and possible new activities and therefore, new hobbies.

Last Sunday I was at 'A Play In A Day' in The Stoke Public House in Guildford. It took place in the back room.

Inspired by '1984', 'The Hothouse' and 'One For The Road', the play is a really intense but fun ride to take.

All day was spent rehearsing and it was really fun for me to see the makings of a show.

Especially a show that was done in one day!

It was so awesome to have read the full script the day before to actually see it come to life!

'A Little Information' is so cleverly written and seeing it actually performed was incredible.

Oliver Matthew Bruce wrote and directed it.

The fact that he was actually there was a  real incredible feat.

It meant you didn't have to worry about wondering what said playwright meant by a certain line or would he/she want it delivered this way?!

I'm sure the cast felt pressure of him being there, but hopefully not too much.

They are all amateur dramatics pros, I was only an observer.

It was performed by Pranksters and it really was worth seeing.


Tuesday, 15 May 2018

Time

There is no time, only movement. Time has to exist because we made it so. Like if a ball goes up, it must come down. In other words, time is man made! It's just something that the human species made up to explain the changes that occur naturally. As much as the seasons are counted and months are in our ever expanding understanding of our universe.

Things take their own time to ripen and taking your own time to adjust to things is really Ok, even though time won't stop for you to prepare yourself for what's coming nextthis is all the joy of living! And yes, it  can be painful and really hard at times, just remember that there is something good that comes from every day.

My boyfriend and I have discussed this and this is the basics. It's a really interesting concept. My boyfriend has broadened my horizons and given me so many new ideas!

Steph

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Tuesday, 8 May 2018

Interview Time!

Today I embarked on an interview that had taken a long time to set up but was well worth it!

The founder of the company I met with was lovely! His wife was great too. Really friendly and welcoming! 

It's for a company called Disability today (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8fAuWuFoeJs&t=31s) and it's a website that connects the unconnected. 

All the services that disabled people, including myself, are entitled to aren't that well advertised, so it's a case of finding out what is available and signposting people. 

Which is what I've done before, only we had to meet them to signpost them. 

It's letting people know what is out there and/or what experiences are out there waiting to be had!

It really looks to be so much fun. It might even inspire some new hobbies or interests for me so watch this space! 

Steph

XxX 

Tuesday, 24 April 2018

Nervousness

I was asked by my boyfriend to meet one of his many best friends last night.

I've already met one of them on Whatsapp and his parents on Messenger as they are living abroad right now.

I'm not a nervous person.

All I can be is myself!

Why would I want or need to be anything different?

I can't be anything other than me.

And it worked.

His best friend was lovely and we chatted about plays and theatres.

What is the point in being nervous about something you don't know?

How is it possible?

Surely it's an unknown entity.

And however it works out is what its going to be and  you can only change that with the amount of energy you put into whatever it might be today.

I do get that people get nervous and that they experience it and it can suck.

I just get it as a choice 'I could feel really nervous about this...' but I think I live in the moment rather than worry about what the future may hold.

I think I've hardwired my brain to think positively.

Steph

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Wednesday, 11 April 2018

Guide Star by Joy Ellis Book Review

It's not so often that a book gets to me - but this one did. I could relate so closely with the characters - it was marvellous!!

'Stella won't give up, but she doesn't know how to go on. 

Stella North, a rising star in the police, has her life torn apart by a gunman's bullets. She has often faced danger, but these injuries mean she must give up the job she loves. Her grandmother Beth is her rock. And Beth is no ordinary woman. At seventy, she runs marathons and has a past that Stella knows very little about. 

Beth calls in her friend Michael to help with Stella's recovery. But this man means a lot more to Beth than she reveals. And Stella's ex-husband Edward and old police partner Robbie want to help, but Stella puts up emotional barriers, and they have problems of their own. Her old friends from her days of Urbex (exploring old abandoned buildings) offer a glimmer of hope for the future.' 

I was blown away by how much you get involved with these characters whilst reading. It was really emotional. I loved the character of Jackhammer and I can totally see where he's coming from and why he did what he did. It was a real rollercoaster of a book and not to be missed.

It's a really interesting idea - how to get enjoyment out of life when you've lost so much encircled with other people's lives and worries going on too.

Such strong characters and her style was just lovely to read.

10/10 in my book!

Thank you for reading!

Steph

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